The Red Thread There is a thread you follow It goes among things that change. But it doesn’t change. People wonder about what you are pursuing. You have to explain about the thread. But it is hard for others to see. While you hold it you can’t get lost. Tragedies happen; people get hurt and die; you suffer and get old. Nothing you can do can stop time’s unfolding. you don’t ever let go of the thread. William Stafford
I like to think of the Muse Beloved of myself as the part of me that is the thread I follow. This thread is always drawing me deeper. It’s this mysterious longing that I have to be fully me, to live my Soul into the world, to offer myself, to discover my own depths, to live from my Wholeness. Describing this part to others can be tricky, hard to grasp freaky even. I have to explain about the thread…. Bill Plotkin describes the Muse Beloved of ourselves like this…the Muse Beloved, the one of us who imagines deeply, wildly and from beneath things, who inspires all sorts of revolutions and pyschospiritual deaths and rebirths. When you get to the place where what you are doing isn’t working any more…the muse helps you muse about another way. When you come to the end of yourself, the Muse is just getting started…it says, “Finally! Yes! Now something can really happen!”. It’s not afraid of letting things die that are no longer serving us so that something new can be born. It loves endings and beginnings. It’s ok with the undoing of things. It loves to use deep imagination… to delve into dreams and symbols, to ponder meanings, to uncover what was hidden. It says yes to delving into our own darkness, not afraid of what has been banished there…it wants to descend into our depths. It can imagine the impossible, be deeply mysterious and profoundly and startlingly creative. Like following the red thread, it allures me deeper into the incredible depths of myself. It can give birth to the never before seen when we surrender what no longer serves. The 3 constant theme’s of the Muse Beloved? Allurement, hidden or veiled meanings and depths and the undoing, dying and re-shaping of things. Did you know that you have a facet of your wholeness that is capable of all this? Another description for it is the lover of fruitful darkness. It says that the dark of us is not a bad, dangerous, fearful or sinister place. Actually, it’s the treasured unknown, the not-yet-known. It’s filled with mystery, possibility, unremembered resources and not yet embraced powers. If you found that your escapist was a fragment that you were particularly good at embodying, then you need better access to the West of yourself in order heal it. The escapist takes you up and out, the Muse Beloved takes you down and in…the places you were once afraid to go. So, what are the dark and unexplored realms in your life? What do you steer clear of in yourself? What do you steer clear of in others? The West, the Fruitful Darkness, Muse Beloved, is the realm of mystery, the repressed, the censored, the forbidden and the unconscious. We have to go where we have feared to tread. We get to wonder about the meaning of our own lives. But don’t forget that what draws us deeper is the Beloved. It’s love that draws us, not fear. It’s allurement and mystery, not fear. I can picture it, beckoning, drawing, calling. Ready to dismantle me and re-member me into another riskier, more potent, sleeker and wilder configuration of me. So, how do I access it? Well, since this part of us speaks in symbol and metaphor, start writing down your dreams. Consider that this part of you, this Dream Maker of you, wants you to know something about yourself and is making itself known. Ponder the images you encounter. Use creativity to respond to creativity. Draw, dance or sing your images. You can also strengthen this part of you by using your deep imagination, or studying myths, rituals, depth and archetypal psychology, mystery traditions, and the practice of poetry, dance or music. Allow yourself to follow your own red thread. What do you feel calling to you? What are you allured by? What are you afraid of ?- there’s clues there too. What do you find mysterious? Ponder what is dying in you and what is being birthed? what you need to let go of? what no longer serves? You can also, like the other facets of Wholeness, remember that it’s there, that it’s a bundle of resources waiting inside you. Call on it.